when i hurt someone that i love most..

it is not easy to forgive someone that ever hurt us so deeply.. i just woke up from my past..and when i realized that everything changed.. i lost everything.. i lost the person i love.. how can this happen so fast?i stood and cry... keep asking to my self.. why??why i have to be like this??
when can this be over.. when can the past stop hunting me in my life...

my past make my love life wost then ever..

i try not to trust other after i fall into a deep darkness of my life..
but the key to love someone is TRUSTING each other...
My mistake and all the things which i hurt someone i love always in my mind.. i cant never forgive my self for hurting someone that appreciate me for what i am,and he even love and care for me...
i used to be childish,ego,and even selfish for my self..
i never understand life...
now i realize that i cant turn those time when i being with my love..
the person i love most...because i have ruin everything,i hurt him..
i hope he read this...

"My Love...
although i changed because of other things,my heart and love cant never changed to love you..

im sorry for hurting you so deeply.. i know that you wont turn those time u being with me and i know you wont turn back.... i hate that i hurt you...i know that i have lose you,if you think that you might lose me.. you are wrong.. 'you are always be in my heart,nor matter what happened,I'll try to get my life more closer to you,to understand and to love you..,i know i wasn't not matured enough that time.. now that i realized that how important you are in my life..'im sorry for being my past.. im sorry because i hurt you so deeply.."

P/s:i love you & i miss you...



im sorry.......