One Step at the time....

time pass so fast.. well im back with my blogging things.. hehehehehe.. i miss posting somehing here. .. hehehehehe... well i upload some new picture of mine soon.. quite busy now a days...

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everything turn into hell

what ever it is... the only things i could say to that person is....


I 
               HATE


                                       YOU


                                                       SO
                                                                        MUCH!!!!!!








Kenapa la ko wujud di hidup sa!!!!!!

Arrgggggggg!!Hate it!!!

HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HateHIMsoMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish to punch them in the face.. make them realize!! 

it's the end of it!!i give up!

i once fall in love with this 1 men that melted my heart.. and without hoping anything.. and without realize those feeling come in sudden.. and i try not to go far from it.. but than everything changed.. Those feeling were getting stronger than before. the feeling keep on hunting me.. yeah.. and i thought it was just a dream of it.. but days by days.. the heart beat of my heart getting stronger and ever.. it just like meeting someone that can make u changed.. but everything is just a mistake of it...

i trusted him like stupid... and i was being betray from those feeling.. being used like picking up things which they can recycle it.. huh... How could their treat someone like that.. ?!yeah.. it was my mistake of trusting them so much... and even keep hoping that they will be mine(kunu la) one day.. but everything turn into upside down...
how would you feel that??huh...
i give up on trusting people now adays.. even friend can betray us... huh..
i just hate human now adays... seriously... huh...

My declaration of LOVE

finally i'm back.... i was too busy working and doesn't have enough rest... so that's why i didn't manage to post some new story all about my Life...hehehe..

wellllll..... sharing some thought here... hahahahaha.... simply but meaningful for me..!


...... i can tell you honestly that i have been depriving myself of anything that has got to do with falling in love lately.so far,i've got no strings attached & i'm happy about it....well... most of the time i am!
unfortunately,the emptiness will sometimes start to build up inside my HEART and i'll have the yearning for some1 to help fill the emptiness.This is usually happens all the time.. well.. some people say.. Love is a gift...
well.. it has been 4month lately i being single... and mayb this is the time for me to open a new chapter..
but question keep on asking me in mind.. 'WHO is the person i might fall in love to?'.. and everything started.. heart and mind was confused... their might be someone that love me out their BUT i can't accept them for a reason.... well.. Love come by it self.. love is a natural gift from the almighty.. love can't be forced... and that's wat i learn all about love.... well... past make me realize that what is wrong and what itsnt .... hmmm...
mayb this is not the right time for me to open a heart to any1... i want to be love,but my heart are not ready... =)
Let god do all the discussion....    

begging of a new chapter...

facing those terrible life that i have go through make me realize that my future is still far apart... i don't need to stop here.. but i have to move on with it..
my friend.. they are the one who cheer me up...and i'm thankful to have them... with they love.. my heart keep on reminding my mind to just move on and get out from my sleep.... the sleep that make me back to the past..
month by month.. i managed to handle everything... and i started to open a new chapter.. seriously.. it is hard for me to open or to begin a new chapter.. but i did managed to do so...
NOW that i have open a new chapter... doesn't mean i'm opening a new relationship.. i just want to get out form the past that keep on hunting me.... eeewwwwwww.... hahahaha.. well... i got long away to go... will update my blogger when i got the tym..

And this come to my life.. as a GIRL a.k.a to be a WOMEN

smokey heart shape...

no hurt in me,no haters in life,nor love with it.. just being YOU!

smile..... 

I miss him so much....

I used to call you my Boy
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had


When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again?

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of everyday

Men, I'm so down
When you're loves not around
I miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
Can't you see how I feel?
Can't you see that my pains so real?

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again?
I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of everyday
Boy, I'm so down
When you're loves not around
I miss you, miss you.I miss you like crazy

I cant fall in love with a person with another religion... searching for a good men, that have a same religion as mine.. that is THE FATHER,THE SON and THE HOLY SPIRIT.

parents say if we want to fall in love with any guys.. its batter to choose someone that come from a good family.. and even have the same religion.. Someone that can really take gud care of u in ur future... orang kebanyakkn cakap.. JODOH kan.. for me jodoh is only a words.. if we trust in our own religion..trust our self.. we might find someone that come from a good family or even have the same religion..nor matter you are rich or poor... loving someone is come from the bottom of our own heart... 'Dont love a person by its image.. but love that person for what they are..' if you love a girl because she is beautiful,its batter fo you to think twice,Does beauty stay forever??or for girls... does a guy with a handsome face or even look cool(macho) will stay forever??beauty of a person is born from the heart... remember that loving someone is patien,loyat,faithful and truth.. and never forget god is they with you..
for me... i perfer to love a guy with same religion as me.....

Learn from mistake,forgive others..

when you see a girl,Crying.. grab her and hug her.. she will fill more comftable..

I miss you ma men,but do you miss me as i miss you so badLy??

huh... times pass so fast.. but i do still miss you so much... i cant even discribe how big my love to you.. but belive in me,i love you is more than a words that can be discribe.. i miss you ma men.. i miss you like cRazy..
when can i forget you??you always walk in my dream and make me feel that you are always be at my side..
i wish those dream that i dream of you its true...but dreams is always dreams.. hope you are always in a good health.. GOd be with you... miss you..... soooooooooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... :'(

when the day,im trying to let everythings ends...

The blood... and the pain that i doest feel at all...

tatooo??

when it come to the topic of tato..
i feel like what to do so.. i want a tato.. that describe about my whole life that is full of pain...
i rather choose to have tato,it might not hurt,rather than being hurt by other people..
but what ever it is.. i still need sometimes to think bout it.. i still consider someone advice...

when i hurt someone that i love most..

it is not easy to forgive someone that ever hurt us so deeply.. i just woke up from my past..and when i realized that everything changed.. i lost everything.. i lost the person i love.. how can this happen so fast?i stood and cry... keep asking to my self.. why??why i have to be like this??
when can this be over.. when can the past stop hunting me in my life...

my past make my love life wost then ever..

i try not to trust other after i fall into a deep darkness of my life..
but the key to love someone is TRUSTING each other...
My mistake and all the things which i hurt someone i love always in my mind.. i cant never forgive my self for hurting someone that appreciate me for what i am,and he even love and care for me...
i used to be childish,ego,and even selfish for my self..
i never understand life...
now i realize that i cant turn those time when i being with my love..
the person i love most...because i have ruin everything,i hurt him..
i hope he read this...

"My Love...
although i changed because of other things,my heart and love cant never changed to love you..

im sorry for hurting you so deeply.. i know that you wont turn those time u being with me and i know you wont turn back.... i hate that i hurt you...i know that i have lose you,if you think that you might lose me.. you are wrong.. 'you are always be in my heart,nor matter what happened,I'll try to get my life more closer to you,to understand and to love you..,i know i wasn't not matured enough that time.. now that i realized that how important you are in my life..'im sorry for being my past.. im sorry because i hurt you so deeply.."

P/s:i love you & i miss you...



im sorry.......