The blood... and the pain that i doest feel at all...
i feel down.. and hurt and pain.. i keep reading the msg from someone whom i love that wanted to 4get bout me...
how does it fell??huh... i feel like wanted to end my life.. it really hurt..when u see someone you love with another pers0n and even trying to hate you.. how could this happed?hmm... everything started bcuz of me... hate being a childish,ego and selfishness..
well.. i was only 17th.. how could love hurt me so deeply??
well.. i have try to sattel everything.. even i try to forget Him or even hate him.. but i cant.. bcuz he's the person that colour my life.. i use to be a white clothe..ans was colored by the Person i love..
but now everythng change.. i did a mistake.. by hurting him over and over again..huh..when i reach the point.. i was trying to end up my life..
it was in the evening at 5.30pm-Tuesday,hometown.
i was trying to kill my self,i was so down.. and there is no one that confrt me... i cry.. cry until i cant event breath..
well i took the knife and was trying to cut my nerve.. to tell the truth.. i doest feel the pain at all..althgth the cut was so deep.. even blood flaw so fast... hmm... i doest feel the pain... the pain i feel is the pain that born in a heart.. which its hard for me to get rid of it.... ='(
crying cant help anything... i just wish i could go far away for everybody..
p/s: im sorry.....
sooo sad...huh...
ReplyDeletetrying to commit suicide is not the idea of the
ReplyDeletecolourful of the L-O-V-E!
You should think twice, re-consider about your decision! Don't rush making a simple way-out to your problems! Don't be selfish!
There's someone who love you but YOU didn't aware of it because you shut your heart to listen to them!
You still young.. Dun't let this simply problems ruins your life! Wokey?
hye nizam... hehehehe..
ReplyDeletehmm..ya i knw that i did smthg stupid that might give me a free ticket to hell..huh..
but wat ever it is.. my heart is closed..
what i need to focus is my future.. i dnt need any love from any guys.. my god,my family and my friend love are more meaningfull... they love never ends..hehehehe...